Here it goes.
I've been with my boyfriend for five years, we have twin daughters, two dogs, and a house.  I don't love him anymore.  I do however love my best friend.  He happens to be living with another one of my very good friends, and they're expecting a baby.  This sounds like a soap opera, but I promise it's all real.
Here's how it started;
In September my boyfriend got laid off, and his plant ended up closing.  He didn't want to find another job, well he did want to get a job, but he didn't want to do the applications or file his own unemployment.  This is where the resentment began.  I was responsible for doing all of his applications, filing the unemployment, taking care of our house, the babies, myself, and him, on top of going to work.  Sure he watched the babies while I was working, but as soon as I hit the driveway he was "off duty". 
He would ask what was for dinner, why I hadn't cleaned the bathroom, then ask me to rub his back, or feet, or get him whatever it was he wanted.  If I dared say no, all hell broke loose.  As you can imagine, I quickly grew tired of it.  And instead of telling him, I told my best friend.
My friend and I met at work (typical soap opera story line, I know) and instantly were drawn together by our extreme love of all things nerdy.  I can't explain what it is about him, but it's amazing. I fell for him in December. 
I was working up the nerve to leave my boyfriend, not even to be with my friend, just to be alone and relearn what it meant to be myself again instead of a Stepford Wife.  I told my friend all of this, and he was completely for it.  He knew there was someone else, but didn't know it was him. 
I ended up staying with my boyfriend because my friend got with someone else.  I decided to try and make it work because I do love my boyfriend, just not like I'm supposed to.
Last night was our last night of work, and I told my friend that it was him I wanted to be with a few months ago, and he was devastated.  He would have waited for me, and now I'm completely confused.  Maybe it just wasn't our time, maybe we're not supposed to be together at all.  But I want to give it a shot, he is my soul mate if such a thing does exist.  I need out of this relationship, and to be by myself do some soul searching and figure out what I'm supposed to do with my mess of a love life.